Sunday, January 15, 2012

Done Waiting...

Tomorrow will be 11 months since my dear student, Sanders, passed away. 11 months since I had the unfortunate experience of a young child, that I spoke to daily, leave this Earth. There really is no way to describe it... nor could anyone ever understand unless they, too, have been in a similar situation: being confused, physically disturbed and upset, walking down a hallway one minute and ducking into the nearest room the next because you have to curl over a table your emotions are pouring out so hard, and feeling the weight of comforting the other 150 students who are now staring at you for direction. I'm not his family, but if you are at all familiar with my teaching style, you know those students are my children. Each one a daily gift from God to remind me that my desire for children has not gone unnoticed.

I think it's a rational reaction to ask questions and search for answers, and during the course of the other 4 deaths I have faced since I was 17 I would normally take this time to seek out what would help me ignore what happened and wait for something better to come along.

When I was home over Christmas break there was a story on the Jacksonville news station about a helicopter that went down that day. This wasn't an ordinary helicopter, it was carrying an organ that a patient in Jacksonville was prepped on the surgery table waiting to receive. Needless to say, it never arrived.

We all have stuff we're waiting for...

But I'm done waiting for something better to come along. I'm done hearing myself and dear friends talk about doing things now to pass the time until God gives them the job they really want, the promotion they've been seeking, the husband\wife of their dreams, or the baby they've always prayed for. Not to be insensitive... I've certainly had my fair share of dream job, bring on the husband moments, but it's time to be satisfied in what God has given us, or not given us, in this moment. To feel blessed in what we have and humbled that He has chosen to use each of our unique gifts for His glory.

I'm not waiting around for something "better" anymore... I'm waiting around for the best! I'm waiting around for Jesus! And until He gets here, or I get there, I'm going to work where I am for Him. Rising out of the darkness of the most difficult situations and glorifying his name with the confidence and motivation that can only come in trusting our Savior.

Ending today with this song... If you don't have it... Download it :)

Waiting Here For You
By: Christy Nockels

If faith can move the mountains
Let the mountains move
We come with expectation
Waiting here for you, waiting here for you

You're the Lord of all creation
And still you know my heart
The author of salvation
You've loved us from the start

Waiting here for you
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's you we adore
Singing Alleluia

You are everything you've promised
Your faithfulness is true
And we're desperate for your presence
All we need is you

Waiting here for you, Lord
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's you, Lord, we adore
Singing Alleluia

We will wait for you, Lord, he'll stand with you
We will sing alleluia
Singing Alleluia, alleluia
Singing Alleluia, alleluia

Waiting here for you
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's you we adore, we adore
Singing Alleluia

Waiting here for you
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's you we adore
Singing Alleluia, singing Alleluia

Waiting here for you
With our hands lifted high in praise
And it's you we adore, with our lives
Singing Alleluia, singing Alleluia

Monday, January 9, 2012

The love of a child...

It's amazing how as you mature and experience more you quickly learn that nothing you do in life is in isolation... one lesson that should be taught to every child, whether they hear it or not. No matter what we experience, when we experience, how we react to it, etc. later in life we see the fruits of our labor... or the consequences of our actions. Everything is interrelated, and we would be doing ourselves a disservice to not take notice.

God has been impressing upon my heart to reach out and work to not only visit other parts of the world, but to inspire others to do the same. We can't all hop on a plane and go visit other countries, but we do all have the ability to impact and invest in others to leave a lasting impression on them that could change the course of their lives. This is exactly what my students rallied around at the end of 2011 to accomplish... to bring awareness and aid to those living in Kenya with HIV/AIDS.

Partnering with Care for AIDS has been the experience of a lifetime and watching students serve others has impacted me in so many ways. Please read the blog post on the CFA site to read about what my students did: http://careforaids.org/blog/

I'm thankful for the experience and for the work God is doing through me for younger generations. It's really such a humbling experience to have been chosen by God to do such work. Louie Giglio said it best last night when he said that all the younger generations need is adult support and belief. He's right... they are a group of children, students, and young adults who WANT to do good in the world... they just need guidance and support! Thank you, Lord... to You be the glory!